random thoughts in a backwards brain

its wierd, thinking that tomorrow we go back to school. Our last first day at springbank high. Graduation. What a thing.

My summer vacation was three days. It has been some of the best three days of my life.

I got home today from tory's. I love her house. Always have, and probably always will. Its not exceedingly large, but a good sixed home made of wood. There is a feeling of safetly, and love there. Just something about that house has always enchanted me, and i hope that whatever it is, never goes away.

The reason i was at torys, bloggert, was because we were having a bit of a before-school-starts-movie-fest. I got to see some friends who i havent seen in over a month and a half, and so that was very enjoyable . When it was first broched to me, i was talking to amber on the phone. She just randomly said "me, tory and nat want to get together with you at someones house, probably torys. PLan it please". And thats what brought the whole thing around. And, wierd as that must sound, i did. I dont mind particularly, being the one who plans events, and making them occur. I like planning things, and doing little projects, and then seeing the end result. Perhaps thats why i like organizing. Or it could just be a crazy part of me.

Anyways, i had such a blast! It was just so nice to relax and enjoy life, without worrying. IN that small little unit, we will always have someone who steps up to the plate and takes the reins. Suprising, i do sometimes. Not a lot of people would believe that bloggert, as i am known as miss indissisive.

I brought cookies. I always bring cookies. Maybe, one day to be daring and different, i would bring another kind of cookie . Or cake. Just to shake things up a bit.

I only slept for about 4 or 5 hours, as is the norm. I wish i could remember half of the things we laughed about, but at that time, my brain was tired and so i merely remember laughing. But it was nice. And i know that the guys will talk about it later and i'll be able to fill in the gaps, so i'm not worried.

I am planning on going down to torys forest with a camera and taking a few pictures. Its so lovely down there, and its just so peaceful there.

Speaking of pictures, i got all my pictures from england printed. It was over 1 400 pics in total, and that was just on my camera alone. When we pool, oooh, so many pics....heh heh heh....

I got a bar-tending book so i can practise. Woot.

School is going to be interesting this year. Its the final strech in a certain sence, and now that its just about to begin, i cant help but reflect upon the years that have already passed. I mean, so much has happened, some small, some mountianous, but all in all, its been such an experence. I dont want to forget anything, and yet at the same time, i want to repress. I want to scream and shout and tell everyone, yet i also want to just sit quietly, and say nothing.

I hate that.

BUt i love my tan. Tra la la la la.

i feel different from the start of this summer. Its hard to explain. When i got back and talked to my brother, who had gone back to university, he said i sounded different somehow. It wasn't until recently that i think so too. In another couple of months, i think i can look back and see somewhat of a transition. But right now, its too close to see. I dislike it when this type of thing happens.

Msn is so nice. I cant believe i missed it....