the sound track of our lives

why is it that everywhere one goes, theres music? Not neccessarly a bad thing, as much is expression of ones self and a way to connect, but the vast amount of music one hears does tend to reach an excetric point.

There is no silence in the world anymore.

When i get into a car, the radio is on. Stores play it. Ipods, walkmans, dickmans, irivers, are always pulled in and being played.

Since when did we begin to fear silence.

It is said that when we are surrounded by silence, our thoughts become deeper and we may explore inner issues. Silence bothers many people. They, for whatever reason, can not stand it, and occasionally dispise it. Do people really fear their thoughts so much that they attempt to drown them out in a torrent of sound? IS that why some peoplce must fall asleep listening to music?because, even on the verge of sleep, they can not stand what is within them?

Does music really have an angel, like the Phantom of the Operah says, or it merely a twisted personification of something? COuld there really be an angel of music, or it is a devil in disguise, preventing inner peace?

I don't know why this really bothers me all this much. Music helps. It prevents me from really communicating with my mother in the car, and i can turn it up to prevent hearing arguments or someone who i dont want to hear. But i guess in a way, music, beign a tool of communication, also limits it. You only hear one person, their thoughts and views, and drown out hundreds of other ones.

Which brings forth the point of why we like the music we like? Is it because of the instrumentals, the words, the sound of the vocalist, or is it something else? Perhaps a fad, music that you were raised with, or is it a personal perception of it? WHy somepeople are drawn to music that other people would not normally know or see them listen to. This has happened to several of my friends, where people just dont undestand how they, with their personalitities listen to it. But why not? What creates these barriers? We each have an inner side, a flip side, which is kept hidden from the world, and many times, from ourselves. But barriers are something that, as humans, we seem to need to erect. Which is sad.

Barriers, such as the apartheids, can create music as well. But in order to create that form of music, one must have an inferior 'race' beneth another.

If i had lived a hundred or two hunded years ago, some of my best friends would not have the equal standings as i do. Hell, i probably wouldn't have such a high standing either (somewhere along our blood line we're pretty sure we have native blood) . But, tasha for example, is portroguese, people who when captured were turned into slaves. If i was to know her back then, she probably would be a servent or a slave. Same goes for amber, with her german background, and aya, for her jamican/barbados roots. I guess the british were taking native wives for centuries so i wouldn't have been too effected, but i must say that one good thing about living in this age is the illusion of equality. At least we have that. I say illusion because, ever though we all bleed the same colored blood and when the lights are out we are all the same, there are individuals on all sides, in all cultures, whom hold a disenchantment about all others. Which just raises more barriers.

Isn't it amazing, when someone examines where one type of music orginiated, where it talkes you. Someone who hated the color blue,for example, could have made a song about that hate, and the people who simply adore the color would love the song. Not the intended edffect, of course, but it shows the wonderful yet damning effect of freeedom of choice. Funny, i think thats the second time i've said something like that on my blog. But then, i dont have much against that freedom. Which, in all realitity, in todays world, in nothing more then another illusion. All freedoms are in the society we currently survive in. We dont live here, we dont experence life to the fullest in the ways it should be. So hence, we do not live. We survive.

And music can be seen as yet another barrier. ANd it can be seen as an ultimate freedom. Its all based on perspective. No one is ever right or wrong. We just see the exact same thing from our own unique angle.

ANd, in the time period where we currently teeter, we all have a sound track to our life.