and then he said,"you're beautiful"
last night, i had an amazing dream.
It started off with me at my friend ayas house. Which is not all that unusual, as i have been there quiet alot, and its somewhere where i feel very comfortable. Me, blair and aya were all hanging out together there (which also has happened frequently) and T had a clint/co-worker over. I remember that T was going to have a show soon, and she had promised me this beautiful necklace to clean her whole house. The necklack was misted, but it wasn't moonstone or rose quartz, it was Alexandrite, one of my birthstones. It is an amazing stone, having the ability to drastically change it color in lights. (http://www.gemstone.org/gem-by-gem/english/alex.html, for more info). Anyways, it also matches up with my middle name rather well too.
But i've been distracted. I would have cleaned T's house for free, as i have on several occasions, but she insisted and i had been unable to change her mind. While i was cleaning, i had somehow managed to get a smudge upon my left cheek. Both aya and blair teased me about it, and later that day i had a shower, and the mark vanished. When i emerged from the bathroom dressed only in a pure white towel, T, her client , aya and blair were all in one big group talking to a new commer. I was introduced to the client and his son, who was our age. i can't remember what either of them looked like, as to me they are now mere shodows where men should have been. I remember that i thought the son was cute, and that he was taller then me.
Later, blair and aya convinced me to go to a movie with them. T said she would drive and the male youth decided to come with us. we went to chinook and took in some form of comedy. After the movie , we abused a photobooth, and i ran out of it to help some poor woman with a door. Its something i do all the time anyways. but when i came back the guy had a wierd look on his face. aya was explainging something to him, and then suddenly he smiled. We went back to ayas house, and aya and blair watched a movie inside. I joined them and we sang along with the 'Rocky horror picture show'. After, they popped in another movie, but i went outside. I was sitting on their porch when the youth came out and sat with me. We talked and laughed and i was really enjoying myself when he said something that completely shocked me.
He turned to me, after a moment of silence after a joke, and said "you're beautiful" .
Me, being the dolt i am in and out of dreams, stared at him, said a muffled thank you, and jumped up and as soon as i was out of eyesight raan like hell towards the river. I got to the middle island, but i dont remember being wet . And i just sat out there, surrounded on all sides by water. And i began to cry. I didn't know what else to do. Someone had called me beautiful. With feeling. Something i have always wanted happened, and i didn't know what to do. I remember looking up, towards the shore leading to the house, and seeing someone, watching me. I dont know who, or why, but they were just watching me. And it didn't feel wierd, like it usually does. It was comforting. I blinked and they seemed to melt into the shadows.
I remember leaning over the calm river, which i could have sworn was moving rapidly a moment before, and saw myself. Even after crying, and having mussed hair, i looked. For a moment that lasted forever and ended in a heartbeat, i WAS beautiful. I could see that, and i felt it with every fiber of my being. And then a single tear rolled down my cheek and merged with the waters, and my reflection was faded out and washed down stream in the torenting waters.
I woke up after that, to find my pillow wet and a tear rolling down my cheek.
Never before have i had a dream like that, and i wrote it down here to remember it. And look back on it and smile.
It started off with me at my friend ayas house. Which is not all that unusual, as i have been there quiet alot, and its somewhere where i feel very comfortable. Me, blair and aya were all hanging out together there (which also has happened frequently) and T had a clint/co-worker over. I remember that T was going to have a show soon, and she had promised me this beautiful necklace to clean her whole house. The necklack was misted, but it wasn't moonstone or rose quartz, it was Alexandrite, one of my birthstones. It is an amazing stone, having the ability to drastically change it color in lights. (http://www.gemstone.org/gem-by-gem/english/alex.html, for more info). Anyways, it also matches up with my middle name rather well too.
But i've been distracted. I would have cleaned T's house for free, as i have on several occasions, but she insisted and i had been unable to change her mind. While i was cleaning, i had somehow managed to get a smudge upon my left cheek. Both aya and blair teased me about it, and later that day i had a shower, and the mark vanished. When i emerged from the bathroom dressed only in a pure white towel, T, her client , aya and blair were all in one big group talking to a new commer. I was introduced to the client and his son, who was our age. i can't remember what either of them looked like, as to me they are now mere shodows where men should have been. I remember that i thought the son was cute, and that he was taller then me.
Later, blair and aya convinced me to go to a movie with them. T said she would drive and the male youth decided to come with us. we went to chinook and took in some form of comedy. After the movie , we abused a photobooth, and i ran out of it to help some poor woman with a door. Its something i do all the time anyways. but when i came back the guy had a wierd look on his face. aya was explainging something to him, and then suddenly he smiled. We went back to ayas house, and aya and blair watched a movie inside. I joined them and we sang along with the 'Rocky horror picture show'. After, they popped in another movie, but i went outside. I was sitting on their porch when the youth came out and sat with me. We talked and laughed and i was really enjoying myself when he said something that completely shocked me.
He turned to me, after a moment of silence after a joke, and said "you're beautiful" .
Me, being the dolt i am in and out of dreams, stared at him, said a muffled thank you, and jumped up and as soon as i was out of eyesight raan like hell towards the river. I got to the middle island, but i dont remember being wet . And i just sat out there, surrounded on all sides by water. And i began to cry. I didn't know what else to do. Someone had called me beautiful. With feeling. Something i have always wanted happened, and i didn't know what to do. I remember looking up, towards the shore leading to the house, and seeing someone, watching me. I dont know who, or why, but they were just watching me. And it didn't feel wierd, like it usually does. It was comforting. I blinked and they seemed to melt into the shadows.
I remember leaning over the calm river, which i could have sworn was moving rapidly a moment before, and saw myself. Even after crying, and having mussed hair, i looked. For a moment that lasted forever and ended in a heartbeat, i WAS beautiful. I could see that, and i felt it with every fiber of my being. And then a single tear rolled down my cheek and merged with the waters, and my reflection was faded out and washed down stream in the torenting waters.
I woke up after that, to find my pillow wet and a tear rolling down my cheek.
Never before have i had a dream like that, and i wrote it down here to remember it. And look back on it and smile.
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