The heart slowly drains, and the blood leaves the wound, never to return to the cold body

WHO ever said that valentines day was fun should die a very painful death!!!!

Valentines day is now the worst, OFICALLY WORST, hoilday ever!!!!!

AS you all know by now, i have had a monmster crush on a really great guy for a year and a half. He is so great, and stands so strong in what he believes in, and he always makes me feel good about myself.So, i decided to take the plunge and make the first move. I wrote him this valetines, and it went like this:

Today is the day of hearts and hugs
Of chocolates and stolen kisses
All covered in whipped cream

Today is the day of doters, champions and knaves
and they all agree on a few thing:
1) cuddling is no fun at all without a partner
2) we've had all our shots
3)neither one of use is currently wanted by the federal authorities (unless your not telling me something....)
4) most amusemtent park rides require two people

So, what do you say? Will yuo be my very speical valientines today? Perhaps tomorrow? Maybe even the day after that?

THough if you want to stay good friends, i'm ok with that.


AND HE WONT GO OUT WITH ME BECAUSE I"M NOT CRISTEIN!!!!!

aND the worst thing is, i can't say i blame him. I mean, i know i'mnot exactly eye candy, nor am i the smartest or bravest, but this was such a big step for me, asking someone out. I mean, i am so old fashioned, and then i did this.

THis is how he told me:


David says:
hiya
death by chocolate says:
hi
David says:
hw are ya?
death by chocolate says:
ok i guess
David says:
yes?
David says:
that sounds
David says:
errr
David says:
not that great...
death by chocolate says:
tisn;t
death by chocolate says:
*tisn't
death by chocolate says:
how about u?
David says:
whats up?
death by chocolate says:
the sky, roof and stars
death by chocolate says:
u?
David says:
hurmmm
death by chocolate says:
there must be something
David says:
you be so secretive
death by chocolate says:
about what?
David says:
I dunno
David says:
stars and roof and sky
David says:
all a conspirecy
death by chocolate says:
how so?
David says:
not telling!
death by chocolate says:
tell me
death by chocolate says:
please
David says:
well
David says:
the satrs say to the sky
David says:
tral la la
David says:
its conspiritating
David says:
and then mr roof is
David says:
all like
David says:
blah blah blah
death by chocolate says:
lol
death by chocolate says:
i love that conspiracy
death by chocolate says:
much like shumoo
David says:
ah yesh...
David says:
whoa
David says:
just saw yer valentine card
David says:
well done my friend...
David says:
creativy
death by chocolate says:
thx
death by chocolate says:
do u like the beaver?
David says:
hehe
David says:
yesh twas gonna say that
David says:
fancy beaver
death by chocolate says:
i thoght you'd like it
death by chocolate says:
have u seen the froggie?
David says:
no
David says:
uh
David says:
aha
David says:
I see
David says:
nice
David says:
death by chocolate says:
lol
death by chocolate says:
i love that stamp
David says:
hey uh...
David says:
andrea and brianna sez they know
David says:
who sent me a crush today
David says:
do you know toooo by chance?
death by chocolate says:
perhaps i do
David says:
yes?
death by chocolate says:
and
death by chocolate says:
?
David says:
yes and....?
death by chocolate says:
and what?
David says:
uh ooh
David says:
I got lost a few ands & whats ago
death by chocolate says:
lol, i did too hun
death by chocolate says:
its ok
David says:
so,
David says:
where were we?
death by chocolate says:
dunno
David says:
card?
death by chocolate says:
ah yes
death by chocolate says:
you liek
death by chocolate says:
?
death by chocolate says:
*like
David says:
ya it was special...
death by chocolate says:
awww
David says:
I'm so confused though
death by chocolate says:
about what?
David says:
I dunno
David says:
its intent?
death by chocolate says:
and whats not straight forward about the intent?
David says:
sorry
David says:
I confuse easly
death by chocolate says:
thats alright
David says:
*easily
David says:
ya
David says:
I dunno
David says:
I'm at this silly point right know
death by chocolate says:
what kind of silly point?
David says:
where getting toooo close to
David says:
non-christians is confusing me
death by chocolate says:
confusing how?
death by chocolate says:
???
David says:
ummm
David says:
its just that
David says:
you guys are all like
David says:
satenists
death by chocolate says:
WHAT?
David says:
even if your straight edge
David says:
and you just dont realize it
David says:
I'm having moments with
David says:
all my non christian friends
death by chocolate says:
what type of moments?
David says:
erm..
David says:
conflicts of intrest
death by chocolate says:
hows that?
David says:
read the end of the
death by chocolate says:
your so dedicqted to god and all them
David says:
letter to the corinthians
David says:
it'll all make sense
death by chocolate says:
who?
death by chocolate says:
can you explain that please?
death by chocolate says:
now i'm teh confused one
death by chocolate says:
david?
David says:
I'll grab it
David says:
sorry
death by chocolate says:
for what?
David says:
ummm
David says:
not replying quick
death by chocolate says:
thats ok
death by chocolate says:
i understand
death by chocolate says:
are you looking the thingy up?
David says:
that I am
death by chocolate says:
ok
death by chocolate says:
i'll wait
David says:
hurmmm
death by chocolate says:
what?
David says:
think I'm looking in the wrong place
death by chocolate says:
lol
David says:
alas
David says:
sorry
David says:
found it
David says:
took a while
death by chocolate says:
its ok
death by chocolate says:
aya already found it
David says:
The Armor of God
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the ful
David says:
full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with
death by chocolate says:
yuo said it was something else
David says:
mmmhuh
David says:
I did
David says:
got confused though
David says:
mixed up two books
death by chocolate says:
that happens
David says:
which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will
David says:
fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
David says:
ah
David says:
theres a few pages for you
David says:
I gotta go
David says:
bye
death by chocolate says:
bye
David says:
see ya
David says:
EPHESIANS 6 in case you forgot!
David says:

ANd i feel so horrible, and i almost wish that he could be smot wheer he stands, but theres this little bugger to that plan. I STILL R EALLY LIKE HIS SORRYASS!!!!

Hes the onyl guy whos made me feel important enoguh to place school second, make me laugh when i'm absoultly miserable. I mean, i'm crying, yet he can say something, and even thoguh it feels like he ripped my heart out and has laid it bleeding on the ground at my feet, i still laugh and think how wonderful he is. How nice he is, and how cleaver he is to say something like that. when mst people would use a saying thats been over used.

I wish i could rant and rant and rant about how horrible he is, and about all his faults, but i can't.

His name truely is cursed.

And i still like him. How cruel this world truly is.
Like i stated in the earlyer post, at least i still have zues. I know for a fact he doesn't mind too much when i cry into his fur. I think i'm going to take full oppertunity of that fact now....