the cage, of mind and body

i write to you from a place far worse then the grave. Suffering, sniffles and hatred roam through the veins of this building, occasionally bumping into and consuming any and all happyness and joy. the place of which i am is always watched, never allowing indiviudality or peace. Aka, its just another day at school.

But off the depressing stuff, and on to the jucy filling.

Aya is one person i do not want to ever have against me. She is one of the best friends i have, yet could be one of the worst persons to be against. She is planning on getting breanna and cullen together, by either thier choices or no. She said she was going to drag breanna down and make her sya her love to him, or she's going to send them each a crush, form "each other". Aka, shes going to write it and sign names. Which could be evil on what she could write. She made me send a crush to Him. I am not going to say His name, but most ppl know who he is anyways, at least those who actually know me, so my secret of Him is quite safe....i think.

I am still going to do my val's day plan, thoguh i have already sent him a crush. But my plan is that i will bring two valentines to school for Him, one blank and the other with a witty thing asking Him out. Depending on how events progress, and if He gives me a valentines, i shall give Him a valentines, but if he asks me out, then i shall give Him the balnk one. If He doesn't ask me though, i'm giving Him the valentines asking Him out.

Tis a well thoguht out plan. Well, actually not really thoguht out for if i did i would chicken out and not do it, and then i would be following my bad habits and not following my new years resloutions, which i really want to keep. And i know that if at least i make the first move, maybe something will come out of it. I mean, i have like Him for about a year and a half now. Shouldn't i at least make an attempt even if he doesn't??