life, with its ups and downs...more downs though...
ah ha, ha ha ha. Its been awhile since i've posted...
Time tends to go by very slowly at times. Sometimes, unfairly. I know i have readings and such to do, yet i can't bring myself to do them yet. I usually do all of my readings, yet i can't seem to bring myself to it tonight. I guess i'm a little off. I just keep watching Superman cartoons on my computer. I am in a funk, and i know it. I seem to work and work and work, and get very little back from all my efforts put in. Tis rather discouraging.
And i feel so blah. I've put on some weight, am not exercising nearly enough, i am not sleeping well, i can't seem to stick to anything, i feel lost and i feel like a complete coward. Maybe these are first year jitters or something, but ARG!!! its a pain in the ass.
I came here to learn, not to feel sorry for myself. what happened to the best years of my life. I know,yes, early stages, things get better, haven't met enough people yet. Yadda yadda yadda. I've met some cool people, haven't hung out with them nearly enough. And many oppertunities i haven't managed my time well enough to take advantage of. But damn it, i dont know what to do anymore. I am so confused. And i feel like i can't talk to any one about it. Its just so much stuff, piled up upon each other, so many stupid little things which would normally go without notice. But blah...
Life is not very exciting. I don't know what Kirk meant when he said that for the first few weeks it felt like a movie.
And, lets face it, the guy from upstairs whom i happen to have a crush upon, came home today and didn't come b my room. I know its a trival thing, but he's playing video games upstairs. And i don't want to appear too forward in the whole thing. I don't even know if he likes me anymore. Blah. I hate uncertainty. Its a bitch. But i have discovered that a lot in the world is.
Who knew life was going to turn out this way.
Have one identity sucks sometimes. i wonder how superheroes would make it. I mean, damn, its hard enough as it is. I always thought, hey, spiderman does have it rough and all, not being able to finish his readings. But i have the same damn problem, and i'm just a plain jane. BLah. And i have issues with that...
Tv never solves any problems. But it can give one a momentary feeling of happyness, which can quickly be replaced by guilt over time wasted.
I wish i had stamps. i would send letters home...and i wish i knew where that latter i started writing blair went. Blarg...
Time tends to go by very slowly at times. Sometimes, unfairly. I know i have readings and such to do, yet i can't bring myself to do them yet. I usually do all of my readings, yet i can't seem to bring myself to it tonight. I guess i'm a little off. I just keep watching Superman cartoons on my computer. I am in a funk, and i know it. I seem to work and work and work, and get very little back from all my efforts put in. Tis rather discouraging.
And i feel so blah. I've put on some weight, am not exercising nearly enough, i am not sleeping well, i can't seem to stick to anything, i feel lost and i feel like a complete coward. Maybe these are first year jitters or something, but ARG!!! its a pain in the ass.
I came here to learn, not to feel sorry for myself. what happened to the best years of my life. I know,yes, early stages, things get better, haven't met enough people yet. Yadda yadda yadda. I've met some cool people, haven't hung out with them nearly enough. And many oppertunities i haven't managed my time well enough to take advantage of. But damn it, i dont know what to do anymore. I am so confused. And i feel like i can't talk to any one about it. Its just so much stuff, piled up upon each other, so many stupid little things which would normally go without notice. But blah...
Life is not very exciting. I don't know what Kirk meant when he said that for the first few weeks it felt like a movie.
And, lets face it, the guy from upstairs whom i happen to have a crush upon, came home today and didn't come b my room. I know its a trival thing, but he's playing video games upstairs. And i don't want to appear too forward in the whole thing. I don't even know if he likes me anymore. Blah. I hate uncertainty. Its a bitch. But i have discovered that a lot in the world is.
Who knew life was going to turn out this way.
Have one identity sucks sometimes. i wonder how superheroes would make it. I mean, damn, its hard enough as it is. I always thought, hey, spiderman does have it rough and all, not being able to finish his readings. But i have the same damn problem, and i'm just a plain jane. BLah. And i have issues with that...
Tv never solves any problems. But it can give one a momentary feeling of happyness, which can quickly be replaced by guilt over time wasted.
I wish i had stamps. i would send letters home...and i wish i knew where that latter i started writing blair went. Blarg...
posted by dragon's voice at 11:17 PM
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