tears that fall from heaven burn like hell when they hit someone on earth

well, went to the party on friday. That was at ayas house, as kd's parents didn't go away. So, me, blair, amber, tory and tasha, later joined by keria, went to the party.

Yes, i got slightly depressed, but i had a lot more fun then i had thoguht i would have. WE chopped wood (which is somethni i have always found , for some strange reason, exceedling fun), and then me and blair walked around redwood for hours after tasha, amber and tory left, while keria and aya walked with us for part of the time, but then turned back. It was awesome. We, as a joint effort, made $20 for 'flashing' a car when it drove by. Actually, our boobs were never exposed, we just lifted up our shirts and that counted. So, chigico, is now $10 closer!!!!!!

Today, the atmosphere wasn't as depressing and crushing as it was last night (which was, wow, friday). I had a nice little chate with T, and then i was informed that hunk young bryan was comming. I missed seeing him in his sexy glory, a i have never actually seen him, but i have heard stories from numerious people. but when i got home, it was just in time to get into my moms car and take zues to the vet.

Zues is my puddy cat, and one of the most important things to ever happen to me. He's been feeling under the wather lately, not eating, or drinking too much, and last noight he got a fever. WHich annoys me, as i told my mom that if anything, ANYTHING happened, then she was to call ayas house. But she didn't. SO i was so mad and sad when i got home and found this out. We took him to the vet for another check up (costing me a fortune, but i dont mind as long as it helps my little guy). His fever has droped, and they injected him with a bunch of liquid to rehydrate him, and hopefully bring down his fever to normal, ofr about 24 hours. We are susposto monotr him, to see if he resors back to his old self and starts to eat. If he does, then alls well and we probaly dont have to go back. But if he doesn't, we have to take him to the ER, cause then its really serioes, and he needs the bets help he can get.

I hope he's going to be alright...if anything happened to him....
must think positive thought here people.....positive....

nick came home yesteday, he has spiky hair. It looks good. Hes out right now.i got a hug and almost started to cry.

I started to cry in the vets office, but a survival rule in my house, that must be taken to heart: never let them see your tears, as tears are weakness, and weakness means ppunishment. So, sue me, but i hate crying, especially in front of people. I always save up my anger, sadness, and tryto find a way to let it out, but i dont always get to. SOmetimes i explode, but i try to keep that under wraps. But in the vets office, when they had taken zues to inject him, i couldn't help but get blurry-eyed.

Oh yah, nano wrimo is up and working....i have several goals for it already:
1) complete it
2) donate $100 to the sight
3) get the cup
Nano wrimo, for all you non insane writing people, means national novel writing month, where you must write 50 000 words in one day. I hope my marks dont suffer too much come novemeber..,oh yah, i've also signed up for go girl...should be exciting....

we played at awards night. I didn't get any awards like usual;, but that didn't stop the looks my mom gave me, and her telling em, yah know, awards are great. Why dont you get any? Sorry for being average. Bite me bitch.

So, yah. wondering mind, which isn't at total working conditins right now...
i think i will go check on my baby now....poor puddy tat....